SWAY!!!!!!!!

got up in the morning went to college, drove my grandfather's car to college cuz wanted to go work after class ends at 12. this time i did not cheat the parking, i parked around the housing area. saw a corner house and was so happy to see the front of the house there is an empty space, which means i can park! well in kdu, if u see free area where u can park your car around the housing area, you are consider lucky. so at that moment i was praising the lord how lucky my morning was. until i finish parking the car, sister got off the car, and i heard a middle aged man voice, saying something about the plant and all be careful. well that man was actually talking to my sis, and then immediately i told my sis ehh people's plant, be careful i help u take ur things u faster close the door. i was aware that the man's voice wasn't pleasing at that time. but anyways i got down the car and i make sure that the car wasn't blocking the way or whatsoever. i was being very considerate and i did say that alright i don't think i'm blocking anyone, purposely wanting the man to hear that. and so sis and i walked to college.

so class ended around 11ish about 12. when ms.lopez says alright class end, immediately i packed my stuff and rush down the staircase while texting sayang that i'm on my way to work. that is just my normal monday routine after class i'll rush to work straight cuz work starts from 12 to 4 but class ends at 11ish or 12. so it's really tight. rushed to the car and i was something on my wind screen. that piece of paper look so familiar, bloody hell, compound of rm100! i looked around and only my car has that piece of ugly thing. i was like what the heck is this?? not fair! it must be the owner of the house, who sounded us about the plant.

rush to work and was sort of late but my supervisor understand why monday i'm always late, and so as usual finish work at 4. and used the lift down to ground floor, walked out to the open car park and insert the car key in wanted to start the engine and there again my luck. i can't seem to start the engine. tried so many times yet still i couldn't start the engine. started to panic, but i text my sayang first. to tell him what happened to me and then only i started calling my dad and everyone in the office for help. took so long and stayed under the sun for so damn long trying to start the engine, but it just couldn't start. the mechanic guy came and dad came as well and only at 6 i got to drive the car out of tech park. 2 hours k, under the crazy hot sun. got home and realize i've got sun burnt. dang!!

with the incident happen although i wasn't so lucky today and i was cursing my luck to sayang so much about it. but i have came to know something that i never did know about. Muhamad Ariff love me so damn much, he was so worried about me and keep blaming himself on so many things which obviously i'm not gonna say it out here, but i wasn't even in danger at all and it's not him to be blame on. it was simply an unlucky day and was to happen to me today. i love him so much, i always thought i'm the only one that always worrying for him and he never worry about me before cuz i thought that is just his way with his gf, but today i'm wrong, all this while, he does care and he care more that i care of him. i'm so touched and i feel so safe with him in my life. and i know all this while, it wasn't worth nothing.

Muhamad Ariff aku cinta kepada mu!!!<3

he's back for a week but hardly even have time for me. time fly so fast, two more days he'll be far away from me again, and then i have no idea how long more i'll have to wait for him to come back. i'm so sad thinking about it, but he doesn't seem to understand we did not spend time much together. it felt like all at first when he is leaving, same whole feeling all over, tears start rolling again. i don't want him to leave, i don't want him to study so far away, i love him too much and miss him too much to let him go. really heart-ache. i keep thinking to myself how long more will this go on? how long more do we have to stay apart? how long more do i have to wait for him to come back? i know he's doing all this for me, but i really can't accept it. i feel so lonely without him, when i'm sad all i can do is just call him, not hold his hand or lay next to him. and i'm always worry for him, he's so far away from me, if anything happen to him there i'll be the last to know about it.

SAYANG i xnk u balik stu, sedih taw? i akn rindu u sgt2, knape u xphm lgsung and bg i ikot u?

yesterday i was so happy that i can spend time with him, today i'm very sad thinking that he'll be leaving soon and we hardly spend time together. no one understands me, no one knows what i'm feeling right now.

exactly 3 weeks i waited for u to come back, miss u so much and so much has happened in 3 weeks. sometimes moments was just so sweet and happy that i want it to stop right there where it is just the two of us and no one else. when it comes to argue, i really hate and regret for making u so pissed off at me and silly things i've done or said to u. Sayang sorry la, u know i still love u no matter what, and i seriously know you do too although sometimes i say i don't to pissed u off again. that is what i call LOVE =))))

Destiny....can be replace with fate. and if u were to ask me again what is fate or destiny it means, things happen for no reason. it just happen. for example muhamad ariff and kweh sue-ping.

i would just like to spill out what i've heard today from a friend of mine, her mother said this "if there's fate means there is, what to do if u have already love the person, there's nothing can avoid it" after hearing what she said, i was so frustrated with my life, i believe in fate for the both of us since the day we met.

we are meant to be together, for no reason, we are together and we love each other so much. i've always thought of us that way. but for some reason, my parents just doesn't accept him. it's my happiness, its my fate with him, and it really makes me feel like i have a horrible life and very frustrated with my life because of them.

i know life is never fair, but i don't understand why issit him that they don't accept, i never wanted my life to be fair or thought it would be fair, i only want them to accept him. because i love him so much that i can't loose him. and i believe everything happen for a reason, and i would try although i fail.