rahh-rahh-ra-ahhahh

all of a sudden i just feel like shouting and let everything all out. i love him so much! yes i LOVE him so much and that whatever he says i'll try to just listen and follow. he has changed me so much, seriously

• stop smoking
• stop clubbing (which i hardly in the first place)
• stop drinking
• stop coming back home late
• stop all the wild shits
• going to college
• don't argue with parents for his sake

i am doing all this because of him and what he thinks of me. he's the only thing that motivates me right now. i realise when everything falls, he's the only one that will be by side to guide me through, not even my closest friend which i've known for year or my family which i lived my whole life with. i just feel so sad and lonely when i think about that, my heart feels like it just stop beating for 10 seconds but when i recieve a text message from him i will feel all energized and happy again. feeling like this has been hauting me for days, and it feels like shit. he's the only one that i need to put a smile on my face everyday.