tears

i'm emotionally unstable now. i can cry anytime, which i hate it. i feel like a baby, but it just hurt me so much inside and no one seems to understand my feelings and i can only cry it all out. they are so worried about me getting hurt by him and so, but they are the one that is hurting me now. i feel so bad for him that they do not understand what and how much he did for me. everytime when i think about it, only worries and fear come to me and so my tears start trembling down again. i tried to be strong, but i can't even pull a face infront of them.

ps: bestfriends are bullshit.