sometimes we don't have to go on a date.

sometimes it's not the things that he buy for me.

sometimes it's not what say to me.

it's just the time that we spend together(:

doesn't matter where we go.

doesn't matter what we do.

doesn't matter how long we have.

as long as we are together(:

ILoveYouSayang.

Sue&Ariff.

new year, new start

things are slowing down with him now. hopefully it's a good sign for a new year, but on the other hand, college is giving me creeps. sighss.

i found out today that what XXX actually thought about me after the whole dude thing. i can't believe XXX thought i was trying to destroy their relationship. no wonder XXX doesn't tell me stuff anymore, and i thought it was cuz of my whole bf thing and XXX thought i wouldn't have time to listen to what XXX has to say. i seriously was so fooled by it, found out today i felt disappointment. although it has been a while already, but things will never be the same anymore. just like the red-riding hood story, no more trust like how we used to :(

i would like to say: I LOVE MUHAMAD ARIFF SO SO MUCH!!!
last night i waited for that stupid guy one hour plus for him to finish work and to come fetch me so that we could go out. surprisingly i wasn't angry at him at all, cuz i know he needs to finish work first and once he habis keje he came without any excuses. when he reached, he got down and hugged me and kissed me and didn't want to let go and was so over whelmed, and told me his new year's resolution and it all related to me :D i was so touched. seriously i love him so much, and so does he. we love each other so much.

p.s: we may have problems, but whenever we are together problems fade away.

tears

i'm emotionally unstable now. i can cry anytime, which i hate it. i feel like a baby, but it just hurt me so much inside and no one seems to understand my feelings and i can only cry it all out. they are so worried about me getting hurt by him and so, but they are the one that is hurting me now. i feel so bad for him that they do not understand what and how much he did for me. everytime when i think about it, only worries and fear come to me and so my tears start trembling down again. i tried to be strong, but i can't even pull a face infront of them.

ps: bestfriends are bullshit.

rahh-rahh-ra-ahhahh

all of a sudden i just feel like shouting and let everything all out. i love him so much! yes i LOVE him so much and that whatever he says i'll try to just listen and follow. he has changed me so much, seriously

• stop smoking
• stop clubbing (which i hardly in the first place)
• stop drinking
• stop coming back home late
• stop all the wild shits
• going to college
• don't argue with parents for his sake

i am doing all this because of him and what he thinks of me. he's the only thing that motivates me right now. i realise when everything falls, he's the only one that will be by side to guide me through, not even my closest friend which i've known for year or my family which i lived my whole life with. i just feel so sad and lonely when i think about that, my heart feels like it just stop beating for 10 seconds but when i recieve a text message from him i will feel all energized and happy again. feeling like this has been hauting me for days, and it feels like shit. he's the only one that i need to put a smile on my face everyday.

you make my heart right round right round

sigh. so many things happened and we made it through which i'm so proud and happy that we did. it's a serious thing that i have for him, but no one seems to understand that. bunch of racist @#$%# those !@$# just make me feel so sick and hurt. i am practically lost with my future now, but one thing i'm sure of is that he sacrificed so much for me that i can hardly expected and i'm really touched of what he did for me and i really want him to be a part of my future now. i do not care what happen next, but i will fight for him till my very last breath, i swear i will.

p.s he is a part of my heart now, and i'm not gonna go anywhere without him.

just want you
be by my side with me.

really do want
you.

back with news.

i'm back from ns. well surprisingly a lot of ppl thought i couldn't make it. haha well i was a ic squad in there for 3 months and i nilled it so shut up. lots of scandal in there haha well only into one guy and guess what i am with him=) he's not the kinda guy i would date but well give it a try, he's funny though. really should go look for a job now feeling useless and unproductive everyday. college will only start in Jan. so....a part-time job or something, unless someone wants to take care of my financial state ;P